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Almost there?
Just arrived.. Smells more stale than I remember.

Sorrow Lasts for the night, but joy comes in the morning. Our days are not the same length as Gods. I love putting babies to sleep. Big ones too :) Hugs.


Grr. I even over estimated the comphy factor of this bed. Steves couch was a lot better.

I understand that one I slept on my parents couch for a year because every bed they had for me hurt my back. The one at Duane's is by far the best I've slept in.

You callin me a baby? :P
Only if you like it.
I'd rather be your baby than anyone elses :)


:) that could be arranged. With my families permission first though. :) reguardless of how I love you, I still want their blessings.

Of course. And we both know my family loves you :) my sisters would prolly love to play with you again.
:) it would be my pleasure.

Back at ya.

Andra may be in the hospital for quite a while if she has another stone. Please pray for her. I am very glad I got back when I did nd that the baby will be ok.

If she has another stone she will have to have surgery and get her gull bladder removed. She may be inrecover up to a month. if she ends up delivering as well we are not sure how long she will be there. Baby is 28 weeks so he will be fine as a prem, full term is around 36 weeks. Apparently gull stones are passed down.. My mothers mom has had hers removed, my mother also, now my Moms youngest sister.. and her other sister is getting checked soon. I don't think I am currentlu under medical, but I may be something I face in the future. God will take care of me. I'm glad to be aware of it though and hey im getting a good motherhood experience in the process. Abreana has been really good for me so far.

Ill be praying for all of you. I hope nothing happens.. Especially to you..

Pray especially for Abreanna. She just woke up from a nap. Before long she will miss mommy terribly.
Yea she will.. But she will have you, right?

Yea. She is young and she knows the diference. Andra and I don't want her to get confused. I can be a second mom to her, but I'm not her mom.
True

I'm not about lying to or confusing anyone. Its just not me.

She just gave me one og the biggest little hugs Ive ever had. :) Heart Melts

Blahh.. I wanna go home
Which One?
Home is where the heart is :)
So where is that?
Anywhere with you

I like hearing you explain things like that. Sorry if you get annoyed with me wanting you to explain further all the time.
With other people, it does tend to get on my nerves... But not with you.

I love hearing those kind of details! They make me feel 10 times more loved.

I wish I could tell you exactly how I feel... but I dont think words that incredible even exist.
:) well I could listen to you try until the end of the world and love every second of it.
:)

I love this I'm the first one she has gone on the toilet for! My count is 3 and one well close but not quite with a bath. I'm so proud.

Pokey
:)

How are ya?
Tired

Still
:)


I'm up now.. I was awake early Abreanna was moving a lot. I prefered her not scream so I moved her to my room.

Poke. :) Smiles :)
HeHe
Its really snowing Five inches already
Huh. Oddles of fun

Poke
:) I Miss you more than I thought I would :(
As do I..
It still amazes me how fast things moved between us...
Well it started how many years ago?

True.. How long were you holding back your emotions, and why?

Let me get home before I answer.
k.

Ill send you my response in hopefully an hour. I want to send it all at once. Then let you respond. I think things work better that way. I hope you agree.
I want you to do what you feel is right.

I told you I loved you in High School. Afterward everything happened between you and Kirsten. I let it go, but still loved you, with no clue why, I just did. Then this past week.. I wanted to know that you were not trying to get close to me to just get close to me. So I had to tell you no. Had I not we may have done so many things I would have regreted. I know its true. I still cared about you I wasnt really sure I still loved you. So I said no. Friday Night I told you I loved you without even thinking about it, then added as a brother.. Thats when I started really questioning. Then I couldn't sleep Saturday night. I wanted to know how you felt about me, but I wasnt sure you were going to tell me what you may have thought I wanted to hear or run away again. I still don't know Why I love you I just do. But after being in Chicago and talking about our passions and learning that you supported me. Well that means a lot to me. Then knowing that you have passions too. I don't want you to give up on those. It didn't seem that even if I wanted to see it work we would ultimately have to sacrifice our dreams or each other. I don't want either of those. There is the possibility that we would compliment our dreams well. I didn't want to risk it. Then Saturday night sat up thinking about everything and well I cant lie about my feelings, but wanted to see if you would say something first ignoring my "No". You seemed to have something bothering you but you wouldn't tell me so I asked how you felt about me, and then I told you how I felt. I'm still really not sure about everything. All I know is that I love you. I don't know why, but I do. I dont ever want to hurt you. I think thats all for now.

Wow... That was pretty intense.. I dont even know how to reply...
I get detailed.
And I love it. Its probably a big part of why I love you so much.. You tell me what I need to hear, how I'll hear it best...

I miss you and love you but Im not willing to do things aside from God's plan.
I completly understan. And You have my full support following whatever visions God give you

I know thats what makes me love and respect you all the more.

I love you so much more than I can discribe.. I wish I could be with you right now..
I want to know beyond know that everything is right.

I felt more right holding you than Ive ever felt before..
:) Are you positive its right?
I've never been more sure of anything in my life.

:) So what does that mean for the Future or should I not question it?
I honestly dont know.. But I have a gut feeling God will bring our paths together again.

So what does that mean for now?
We follow the paths God puts in front of us. My love for you will never die, nor my desire to see you follow your visions.

That makes me want to be with you even more. The fact that you understand and encourage me to walk with God. I cant think of a way to even ask for more love.

I have a feeling youll get it anyway :)
:) You would. :) I like it.
Hugs I love you
:)

Poke
:) Ya Know what?
Whaaaat?
I think I like you a little bit. Yea I think I do. ;) :) Cheesy Smile.
Awwww.. You like me? You really life me?
Are you ok with that?
Hmmm... I think I am :)
:)

I'm in a cuddly mood
Don't even tell me that.. Sad Panda.
Hugs Im with you in heart
:) I suppose
YAY

:P
Poke.