God

Some of you I have not talked to in a while so I want to give you an update on where God has taken me.
Currently I am not living in a suburb of Detroit Michigan called Southfield. I have been living with my mothers youngest sister and her husband for the past 4 months.
They have 2 children Caleb who is 6 and Abreanna who just turned 18monts, my aunt Andra is also pregnant and due in March.
I have been working for my uncles Computer Business "The Avant Solution" and on the side getting practical parenting experience as well as an expectation of the possibly steps through pregnancy.

Aside from these things the last year of my life has been extremely difficult but even more amazing blessed. God has taken away a block from my life that was standing in my way from seeing the true glory of God working in my life. Of course at the time I did not see it that way and I was extremely distressed. Praise God that I dislike pain and knew that He was in control. Thank you Lord for that understanding that All things work together for good for those that love you and are called according to Your purpose. Amen.

Well that is just it. I know that God has called me!

In the last four months I have been asking and seeing out what this purpose is in my life. The things that God continued to show did not seem that would be possible. Let alone through me. First off this tells me that hey, I can not do it, that's why God wants to to let Him but be obedient and go where He wants me to go and watch what He does.
I am nothing without Christ. I claim no credit to myself, but all to the glory of Christ.

So why do I ask for prayer, well because in order for me to continue strong, knowing that God is truly calling me I must be prepared to fight off the attacks of Satan, for it is know he will attack and turn people away from me. I want more and more faith to take the steps in which God will place in front of me.

The Vision:
God is moving in Detroit!!!
I see Churches coming together and hundreds upon thousands coming to know Jesus as their Savior. Hundreds of Churches, and thousands of Servants for the Lord.

These things will come to pass! I have talked to others who have also seen such things, I request the prayers and support of my family, friends and those who may have incredible insight and understanding beyond my knowledge to Gods call.

Thank you all for your prayers and my God Bless You Beyond Measure. AMEN - SO BE IT - BE IT SO

~ LOVE DETROIT ~

Love Michelle

texts

I forgot... You... :(

Are you safe?
Yes
So has anything hit you yet?
A couple of small rocks... A gust of wind or two...

I think we should have waited.
Prolly
You know what I meant.
Ok, done driving for a bit. I wasn't planning on things getting as heated as they did.. I had no idea youd be as aggressive as you were..

Sorry, thats exactly why I said I should wait. Id like that to be the last. Its just not wise for me. Id really like to stay dormant until my family has been sought out first. My family is important to me and when a man someday wants to see my daughter I would like to know about it. Maybe that's just me.
But what's done is done. I dont want our relationship to grow around physical desires. Neither of us can afford that distraction.
I understand. Just remember that I'll still love you, no matter how you choose to move forward.
:) its not my timing. I intend to make no forward movement. God will surely make things clear to a man who desires my heart. You know I love you.

But God definately has plans... Chris's boss seems extremly enthusiastic about hiring me. I have a feeling Ill be back home sooner rather than later.

Good luck. I pray God gives you discernment on His plans for you. AMEN. SO BE IT, BE IT SO.
:) follow your vision. I'll be here.. And Im equeally willing to wait for the right time.

How far are you?
East Ohio --1pm
How long till you get home?
Duno
Let me know when you find out.
Yeppers
Are you staying awake?

K. Andra ay be having her gull bladder taken out. Steve says she has been having gull stones. They are looking to taking it out without harming the baby.

So Steve just asked me if you behaved yourself.. Hmm how to reply.. My family loves me.
I did my best...
I'm sure you will get that question again someday.
Most likely
Are you getting enough rests?
Im fine
Right.. I trust you. Where ya at now?
PA

Do you regret anything?
I was just going to ask what you were thinking. I didn't even have to ask. And Im not really positive. I guess I never thought that the feelings I had for you in high school would ever be brought out again. I'm not really positive if I regret anything. I do know it will make it twice as hard to stop when I see you again.

I prefer to stay clear of getting physical. After this morning I don't know how well I can handle that. I don't want to ruin anything. I really want my Wedding day to be amazingly special. What about you? Do you regret anything?
I don't think so.. It may have been rushed, but Ive never felt so incredible in my life... So Loved and wanted

A month ago, I would have never imagined myself saying this now, let alone to you.. But I truly do love you.. With all my heart

:) I love hearing that.

Sorry it took me a bit to reply. Abreanna peed in the potty! I dont know if she has for Andra but a first for me. I'm so proud of her!

You have no idea how Happy it makes me to know that you get along with my family. I love it.

Are you getting close?
300miles...
:) I miss you. I wanna go do something crazy.
I miss you too
Almost there?
2 1/2 hours
Still to go?
yeah which is about 5 hours too long...



:) I can agree with that Hugs.

Are you past NY?

I'm sad that you made the whole trip with no sleep. I don't think i could even imagine how tired you are.

What are you thinkin about?
I just crossed into mass, Im so tired Im slightly hallucinating. and Im thinking about my warm bed.. And wishing i had kidnapped you :p

:) if it will help you can always call. I know when Im tired it helps to talk to someone to keep my mind active.

Continue of trip home.

So after Tuesday, comes Wednesday obviously. God is good.

-- Took Matt to School Talked to Mc D. Went to Adams.. Took Mom to doctors office in morning, to David's house... His dad makes guitars... Yea he gave me one.. Amazing. then lunch then picked up Matt from school then went over to Adams... Amazed... to say the least...


I made my way to youth group. I had Matthew take me and Kristen to youth group. Man It was so nice to see all of my girls again. I love them so much. I pray they continue to learn that God loves them so much and each and everyone of them is Beautiful, or as my friend Nick would say "Drop Dead Gorgeous". I am leaning to believe that myself.

Wednesday Night I was able to talk with my friend Kelsey, She is such a sweetie. I love her.


Thursday I was intending to spend the evening with my friend Makayla, but unfortunately her mother would not let her. So I ended up going to my grandparents then to see if BASIC was happening at UNI then since there was not BASIC, Matt and I went to see if Mike and Kim were home.. No they were not, but their son Eric was and he told us that they were at the Lampost so we went there to find there was a program going on so we went to Taco Johns... They dont have one in Michigan...Tear.. then we went back to Lampost to see Mike and Kim and a few others that were there.

Then Friday..
We had a 80's party at Rhett's house, I had Matt take me to pick up David at the Bowling Alley and ended up just driving down with David.
We ended up taking a few extra friends to Squishy's house and had a great time..

Thoughts that my David liked me more than I felt comfortable began to surface, but the timing was not right to bring it up and discuss it.
I was nice to relax with friends and have a good time.

Saturday evening brought for an interesting night. The weather began to get bad...

Travles

Vacation...

Sunday.. David arrived to Detroit.. We met at my Church the Royal Oak Vineyard in Royal Oak.. We ended up staying the night in Detroit then planning to head to Chicago in the morning. We did not leave until 4 oclock, we stayed to care for Abreanna while Andra was at her doctor appointment to check up on the baby. We left Detroit about 4:15 and arrived in Chicago around 8pm. We had some wonderful conversation with Duane and his wife. Then off they went to bed and David and I stayed up till about 1:30 and watched The Illusionist and talked for quite a while..

I found it nice to see David again and get to talk to him. It has been a long time and as he stated it was like we picked up our friendship where it left off.

Then in the morning David ended up talking with Duane for an extra 2 hours. So we left around Noon. On the way home it started snowing.. Yippy! Not... But we did stop at a random Rest area for David to clear his mind... This is where I found myself making snow angles. :)

Then we stopped at the Worlds Largest Truck Stop on I80 and had some late lunch around 2. After jumping back on the road, we got about 8 miles and got stuck behind about 4 miles of backed up cars. We now know that there was a 7 semi and 2 car pile up... Not so fun...

So an hour and a half of moving very slowly we are redirected past the accident. Then we find ourselves on Highway 30.... Not the one we want.... We got lost in Iowa... The state we are from... I find that Hilarious.

We arrive home about 9pm..

This is I believe the first time David has been to my parents house and he helps me unpack and consoles me on a few things I felt God was telling me to do..
We discussed these on the way home.. An incident between my Brothers friend and myself..

So after David tells me everything will be fine, I walk into the house and gather the family and share the difficult news with my family. Tears were involved.

God is good everything turned out well...
I will finish another night.

check

So I noticed this morning that since my friend David has been here my focus on Christ has been a bit scued. I have also realized that I need to continually pray harder to keep myself in line. There are things for me that feel natural with certain people and I need to pull myself back and say No this may get me in trouble.

Lord I need your help and your eyes and discernment to stay in check.

70-80% pf what comes into your head may be from the devil... He got her thinkin...

Lord keep me away from the Devils thoughts....

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Chapter 2

God is looking for people to whom He can transfer His passion and dream. p. 25

If your going to be a dreamer, God wants you to take risks! You can't persue a dream without someone saying, "Who does he think he is?"

"Let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith." Hebrews 12:1-2

"Ye have not because Ye ask not"James 4:2 p.31

battle

The Battle in my mind.

How do I continue to Fight Satan..
Everytime I come to the point where I realize I have to put myself on the cross and let Jesus walk though me my mind becomes lighter.
He is taking over in the battle of my mind.

I need to be continually transformed.. "By the renewing of your Mind"

I am tormented by Satan, he wants me to be ignorant. I want and ask for more faith and more knowledge. Lord you tell us that we are given each and every gift of the Spirit. I ask that they all become increased in my life that I may continue to let you walk through me and that I gain faith by the miracles you will perform though me.

Lord you showed that young people do have Your power within them.. David and Goliath..
Let my faith not be squandered. But let it be increased that I may walk with you.

Open wide the path before my eyes, give me your eyes. Show me your route. The best one, Yours.