God

Some of you I have not talked to in a while so I want to give you an update on where God has taken me.
Currently I am not living in a suburb of Detroit Michigan called Southfield. I have been living with my mothers youngest sister and her husband for the past 4 months.
They have 2 children Caleb who is 6 and Abreanna who just turned 18monts, my aunt Andra is also pregnant and due in March.
I have been working for my uncles Computer Business "The Avant Solution" and on the side getting practical parenting experience as well as an expectation of the possibly steps through pregnancy.

Aside from these things the last year of my life has been extremely difficult but even more amazing blessed. God has taken away a block from my life that was standing in my way from seeing the true glory of God working in my life. Of course at the time I did not see it that way and I was extremely distressed. Praise God that I dislike pain and knew that He was in control. Thank you Lord for that understanding that All things work together for good for those that love you and are called according to Your purpose. Amen.

Well that is just it. I know that God has called me!

In the last four months I have been asking and seeing out what this purpose is in my life. The things that God continued to show did not seem that would be possible. Let alone through me. First off this tells me that hey, I can not do it, that's why God wants to to let Him but be obedient and go where He wants me to go and watch what He does.
I am nothing without Christ. I claim no credit to myself, but all to the glory of Christ.

So why do I ask for prayer, well because in order for me to continue strong, knowing that God is truly calling me I must be prepared to fight off the attacks of Satan, for it is know he will attack and turn people away from me. I want more and more faith to take the steps in which God will place in front of me.

The Vision:
God is moving in Detroit!!!
I see Churches coming together and hundreds upon thousands coming to know Jesus as their Savior. Hundreds of Churches, and thousands of Servants for the Lord.

These things will come to pass! I have talked to others who have also seen such things, I request the prayers and support of my family, friends and those who may have incredible insight and understanding beyond my knowledge to Gods call.

Thank you all for your prayers and my God Bless You Beyond Measure. AMEN - SO BE IT - BE IT SO

~ LOVE DETROIT ~

Love Michelle

texts

I forgot... You... :(

Are you safe?
Yes
So has anything hit you yet?
A couple of small rocks... A gust of wind or two...

I think we should have waited.
Prolly
You know what I meant.
Ok, done driving for a bit. I wasn't planning on things getting as heated as they did.. I had no idea youd be as aggressive as you were..

Sorry, thats exactly why I said I should wait. Id like that to be the last. Its just not wise for me. Id really like to stay dormant until my family has been sought out first. My family is important to me and when a man someday wants to see my daughter I would like to know about it. Maybe that's just me.
But what's done is done. I dont want our relationship to grow around physical desires. Neither of us can afford that distraction.
I understand. Just remember that I'll still love you, no matter how you choose to move forward.
:) its not my timing. I intend to make no forward movement. God will surely make things clear to a man who desires my heart. You know I love you.

But God definately has plans... Chris's boss seems extremly enthusiastic about hiring me. I have a feeling Ill be back home sooner rather than later.

Good luck. I pray God gives you discernment on His plans for you. AMEN. SO BE IT, BE IT SO.
:) follow your vision. I'll be here.. And Im equeally willing to wait for the right time.

How far are you?
East Ohio --1pm
How long till you get home?
Duno
Let me know when you find out.
Yeppers
Are you staying awake?

K. Andra ay be having her gull bladder taken out. Steve says she has been having gull stones. They are looking to taking it out without harming the baby.

So Steve just asked me if you behaved yourself.. Hmm how to reply.. My family loves me.
I did my best...
I'm sure you will get that question again someday.
Most likely
Are you getting enough rests?
Im fine
Right.. I trust you. Where ya at now?
PA

Do you regret anything?
I was just going to ask what you were thinking. I didn't even have to ask. And Im not really positive. I guess I never thought that the feelings I had for you in high school would ever be brought out again. I'm not really positive if I regret anything. I do know it will make it twice as hard to stop when I see you again.

I prefer to stay clear of getting physical. After this morning I don't know how well I can handle that. I don't want to ruin anything. I really want my Wedding day to be amazingly special. What about you? Do you regret anything?
I don't think so.. It may have been rushed, but Ive never felt so incredible in my life... So Loved and wanted

A month ago, I would have never imagined myself saying this now, let alone to you.. But I truly do love you.. With all my heart

:) I love hearing that.

Sorry it took me a bit to reply. Abreanna peed in the potty! I dont know if she has for Andra but a first for me. I'm so proud of her!

You have no idea how Happy it makes me to know that you get along with my family. I love it.

Are you getting close?
300miles...
:) I miss you. I wanna go do something crazy.
I miss you too
Almost there?
2 1/2 hours
Still to go?
yeah which is about 5 hours too long...



:) I can agree with that Hugs.

Are you past NY?

I'm sad that you made the whole trip with no sleep. I don't think i could even imagine how tired you are.

What are you thinkin about?
I just crossed into mass, Im so tired Im slightly hallucinating. and Im thinking about my warm bed.. And wishing i had kidnapped you :p

:) if it will help you can always call. I know when Im tired it helps to talk to someone to keep my mind active.

Continue of trip home.

So after Tuesday, comes Wednesday obviously. God is good.

-- Took Matt to School Talked to Mc D. Went to Adams.. Took Mom to doctors office in morning, to David's house... His dad makes guitars... Yea he gave me one.. Amazing. then lunch then picked up Matt from school then went over to Adams... Amazed... to say the least...


I made my way to youth group. I had Matthew take me and Kristen to youth group. Man It was so nice to see all of my girls again. I love them so much. I pray they continue to learn that God loves them so much and each and everyone of them is Beautiful, or as my friend Nick would say "Drop Dead Gorgeous". I am leaning to believe that myself.

Wednesday Night I was able to talk with my friend Kelsey, She is such a sweetie. I love her.


Thursday I was intending to spend the evening with my friend Makayla, but unfortunately her mother would not let her. So I ended up going to my grandparents then to see if BASIC was happening at UNI then since there was not BASIC, Matt and I went to see if Mike and Kim were home.. No they were not, but their son Eric was and he told us that they were at the Lampost so we went there to find there was a program going on so we went to Taco Johns... They dont have one in Michigan...Tear.. then we went back to Lampost to see Mike and Kim and a few others that were there.

Then Friday..
We had a 80's party at Rhett's house, I had Matt take me to pick up David at the Bowling Alley and ended up just driving down with David.
We ended up taking a few extra friends to Squishy's house and had a great time..

Thoughts that my David liked me more than I felt comfortable began to surface, but the timing was not right to bring it up and discuss it.
I was nice to relax with friends and have a good time.

Saturday evening brought for an interesting night. The weather began to get bad...

Travles

Vacation...

Sunday.. David arrived to Detroit.. We met at my Church the Royal Oak Vineyard in Royal Oak.. We ended up staying the night in Detroit then planning to head to Chicago in the morning. We did not leave until 4 oclock, we stayed to care for Abreanna while Andra was at her doctor appointment to check up on the baby. We left Detroit about 4:15 and arrived in Chicago around 8pm. We had some wonderful conversation with Duane and his wife. Then off they went to bed and David and I stayed up till about 1:30 and watched The Illusionist and talked for quite a while..

I found it nice to see David again and get to talk to him. It has been a long time and as he stated it was like we picked up our friendship where it left off.

Then in the morning David ended up talking with Duane for an extra 2 hours. So we left around Noon. On the way home it started snowing.. Yippy! Not... But we did stop at a random Rest area for David to clear his mind... This is where I found myself making snow angles. :)

Then we stopped at the Worlds Largest Truck Stop on I80 and had some late lunch around 2. After jumping back on the road, we got about 8 miles and got stuck behind about 4 miles of backed up cars. We now know that there was a 7 semi and 2 car pile up... Not so fun...

So an hour and a half of moving very slowly we are redirected past the accident. Then we find ourselves on Highway 30.... Not the one we want.... We got lost in Iowa... The state we are from... I find that Hilarious.

We arrive home about 9pm..

This is I believe the first time David has been to my parents house and he helps me unpack and consoles me on a few things I felt God was telling me to do..
We discussed these on the way home.. An incident between my Brothers friend and myself..

So after David tells me everything will be fine, I walk into the house and gather the family and share the difficult news with my family. Tears were involved.

God is good everything turned out well...
I will finish another night.

check

So I noticed this morning that since my friend David has been here my focus on Christ has been a bit scued. I have also realized that I need to continually pray harder to keep myself in line. There are things for me that feel natural with certain people and I need to pull myself back and say No this may get me in trouble.

Lord I need your help and your eyes and discernment to stay in check.

70-80% pf what comes into your head may be from the devil... He got her thinkin...

Lord keep me away from the Devils thoughts....

2

Chapter 2

God is looking for people to whom He can transfer His passion and dream. p. 25

If your going to be a dreamer, God wants you to take risks! You can't persue a dream without someone saying, "Who does he think he is?"

"Let us run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith." Hebrews 12:1-2

"Ye have not because Ye ask not"James 4:2 p.31

battle

The Battle in my mind.

How do I continue to Fight Satan..
Everytime I come to the point where I realize I have to put myself on the cross and let Jesus walk though me my mind becomes lighter.
He is taking over in the battle of my mind.

I need to be continually transformed.. "By the renewing of your Mind"

I am tormented by Satan, he wants me to be ignorant. I want and ask for more faith and more knowledge. Lord you tell us that we are given each and every gift of the Spirit. I ask that they all become increased in my life that I may continue to let you walk through me and that I gain faith by the miracles you will perform though me.

Lord you showed that young people do have Your power within them.. David and Goliath..
Let my faith not be squandered. But let it be increased that I may walk with you.

Open wide the path before my eyes, give me your eyes. Show me your route. The best one, Yours.

Fear

Do not fear.
DO not Fear.
DO Not Fear.
DO NOT Fear.
DO NOT FEAR.
DO NOT FEAR!
DO NOT FEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew

I think God is planning a huge Unity Fest and He wants me to keep the dream strong. I need to ask you to pray for wisdom.

~~YAY

I need guidance. I see a huge change in Detroit in the future. Having been here for 4 months I feel surrounded by emptiness and I continually get a picture of God changing things here in a mighty way. I will need lots of prayer. I do not want to walk a path that God is not on.

~~ So what did you and Brooksany talk about?

Some things we both need prayer through. I didn't mention this though. I know this is somthing that you also share a passion for, so I know you will pray.

In the past month God has been convicting me to be transparent and honest. Sometimes that is difficult when you feel your sin may hurt those close to you.

But God does Promise us in Romans 8 28 that "All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose"

~~~ Are you near a Computer?

Yea
~~~ Find out if there is a OneFest this year.

Not this year but would you be interested in leaning more about the inner workings of LoveCedarValley I think God wants me to do something similar here.

It would be helpful to have more direct knowledge about the organization techniques.I can call the leaders and get you more information, If you would go to a few meetings for me.

~~~ Sure what is it.

OneFest has put a lot of its focus on LoveCedarValley.

~~~ K, Sure

Thank you. I know God is doing something huge. Far beyond me. I'm glad you want to be a part of it. He has a huge plan for you. I pray you see it. I love you Bro!

~~~ Love you too... Me and Mom is watching a movie. I'll ttyl.

K.

Dreams

SO I just started Reading another book... Yea I'm in the middle of like 5 now...
This one I was given by an aunt before I Left for Michigan..

Yea I kinda shook it off, thinking it was a self help book until this week.
I happened to be looking through a magazine which had a description of the book and well... The Books topic fits with one of the things I have been thinking about recently...

The Dreams God has put in my life.. Like totally Wow!

So I want to kind of go along with the book and answer some of its questions...
For my reference I will also give the page number of the question so I can go back to it later and see how it changes.

Question 1: What do you dream about? What has God enabled you to see that does not yet exist?

Well the first thoughts that come to mind are:
1. Organizing a new Christian Radio Station in Detroit that is supported by local churches in the area.. I love working with Churches. Then Moving on to events similar to Love Cedar Valley that take place in Iowa. I also love organizing Christian Music Festivals. I can see many take place in the Detroit area, Currently I do not know much about location but since when does that stop passion?

I also have a heart for Orphans and very much look forward to being a mother someday.
I love the Idea of working with Missions, particularly overseas to gain some cultural knowledge.

I would love to be apart of a worship band and sing my heart out to my king. I don't think that will be a full time position for me, but that I will more-so foster the ability for others to join in Worship. I would rather Foster worship anyway.

I very much look forward to meeting and marrying the partner God has created for me. I know that he will share many of my passions and encourage me to continue working in them, yet also bring a point of view different to my own that will help work through problems within what ever situation I will face when these passions are being lived out. I also know he will have a heart for music a great relationship with my parents, love nature and treat me the way God sees me. As His Daughter. With utmost respect, delight and love.

I look forward to that.


Yea!! #1 is done..

-- Scripture to Follow...
God can do anything, you know, far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams ! Ephesians 3:20 ~ The Message

Yea!!! Excitement rises!!

Habakkuk 2
2 Then the LORD answered me and said:


“ Write the vision
And make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.
3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time;
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry.
4 “ Behold the proud,
His soul is not upright in him;
But the just shall live by his faith.


God sets before us a need.. He burdens this on our hearts.. Gos transforms this into a Vision. Then God speaks it. Not necessarily in that order.. It is true that God communicates to different people in different ways.

This sentence hits me profoundly... I believe this is what God has been trying to do with me this last week...
pg. 13 "The way to find out what He has for you is to get alone with Him. Spend time with Him. Make it possible for Him to take you up a little bit higher so that He can begin to slip a burden into your heart and put a vision before your eyes and before your spirit."

I need more alone time with God..
More time for Him to speak clearly..

.... Get a clear idea of what God wants you to do and get focused on it. Then, hold on and run with it. You may pant with desperation sometimes, but don't give up. You are like a bulldog with a bone. ....

Paul ended up in Prison for his Vision... Am I ready for that?
I have said I am in the past..
Lord bring it on..
Give me the extra faith to continually walk in you. Aka let you walk through me.


This is Gods vision in reality It is up to God to make it Happen I just need to be willing to lay everything down to see it through. Lord let me see a vast majority though.


3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time;
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Though it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry.

It will come to pass.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXk33xiJ1IY

So Over the last 4 months since I have been in Detroit God has been putting things on my heart.
Things I can not keep ignoring.. So I shall push them through and trust that God will carry them out.
I think it will look a lot like this.. Check out this Video.

I also ask that you pray for discernment to what God truly wants to do through me.

I know it is big. I want it. I know it will be hard. I want His. His life for me is far better than a worthless death.

Give me increased faith and a continous supply of support Lord. I will need you to not get twisted up in Satan's lies. This is the last thing I want.

This is precisely why you have taken me into these new things. Change.. You needed to change me. Let me step with you. Not in front of you.

You already know what will be needed. I pray you give them in the way the order and the time you desire Lord.

May it be Done in Jesus Name.

AMEN SO BE IT!

MY Life is Yours!

Take it use it for YOUR Glory!

Radio

So for a few months now, I have had it on my heart to possibly start a radio station here in Detroit that will bring the light of Christ into this area. When I first moved here from Iowa I was shocked to find only 1 FM somewhat Christian Radio Station and 1 prominent AM Station... I found that unbelievable and not acceptable..

So I prayed about it and for some reason the thought continues to linger in the back of my mind... So today I decided to do something about it..

Research what it would take to begin a station and trust that God would either continue to instill this thought and turn it into a passion in which He would ignite a fire and the means to create this out of nothing or provide the resources in which to turn and existing tower into one that will be used for the work of the Lord.

Now God I request that you either confirm or deny this thought/ desire you have placed within my spirit. Is this want you want of me?

Am I to stay in Detroit and head this project?

Who will you allow to become apart of this project?

Give me a vision you have set for my life.

You also have given me a desire to travel to Africa, are you sending me shortly?
I look forward to your confirmation and guidance.

Let me be transparent for you. Let me no longer be confined in any way but yours.

Mind

So Satan wants to battle... with my mind...

You will loose.. I am learning to take my thoughts captive... You will loose..
Yes you know I desire a husband... But no it will not happen outside of the will of the Lord...

Get out...

You can not take my heart and twist it up as if it were a rubber band..

My God is a Mighty God who delights in my Heart and desires its protection...

I desire its protection my body, mind and soul are gifts I bring for the use of God's glory, nowhere with in that are you Satan accepted... In fact you have been and will continue to be rebuked.

Truth

So I thought I had this on a previous account I had deleted.
Wow I am glad I did not delete it.

I now feel more of a freedom to truly express my thought without concern of pleasing anyone, or attempting to enhance myself in the sight of others reading...


Seriously... how can we truly be humble when we feel we have to please people or inside you feel that you truly want to be closer to Christ and Express your deep thoughts that you share with Jesus when you also want to to be close to the man He has set aside for me.

Yes I will admit it I am attracted to a man currently.. But I want no part of anything unless it is God's will. If He truly seek out God's desire for our union and also my families...

I want no part in falling short to God's design for me and falling into Sin... I've been there before. I don't want it..

So in this instance I am very thankful that this blogging page still exists for in my knowledge no one I currently know has knowledge of this site.

For me that provides a freedom of expressing honest thought and feelings.

In reality is that not what we all need?

Yes I do love speaking with my Lord, but for me I feel deep within me that I need more.. I need to share my thoughts, to be completly honest, and to not stand out as a person anyone wants to place on a throne... That's not what my life is about. I want nothing to do with being placed on a throne. I want my Lord to be the one recognized.

You may ask why I have a hard time noting this on other places, well as I said earlier I don't want people to think of me higher than any other..

Truly, I have sinned in the past, I have been washed clean, but does that mean I do not deserve death?
Seriously, I have broken mans law, Speeding is breaking the law... Yea sucks huh? You deserve death...
We all do..

Yea so why does man put a different level on specific types of sin... Like they don't all deserve death?
Murder... Speeding... Still the same... Sin.

Maybe you have not been convicted when it comes to speeding as some have but truly you are not above the law God gave us..

Are you... If you are I would find it interesting to talk with you..

To provide a better key into this let me give you the 10 Commandments here.

Exodus 20
The Ten Commandments
1 And God spoke all these words:

2 "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

3 "You shall have no other gods before [a] me.

4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments.

7 "You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.

8 "Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. 11 For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.

12 "Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

13 "You shall not murder.

14 "You shall not commit adultery.

15 "You shall not steal.

16 "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.

17 "You shall not covet your neighbor's house. You shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his manservant or maidservant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor."

18 When the people saw the thunder and lightning and heard the trumpet and saw the mountain in smoke, they trembled with fear. They stayed at a distance 19 and said to Moses, "Speak to us yourself and we will listen. But do not have God speak to us or we will die."

20 Moses said to the people, "Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning."

21 The people remained at a distance, while Moses approached the thick darkness where God was.
Idols and Altars
22 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Tell the Israelites this: 'You have seen for yourselves that I have spoken to you from heaven: 23 Do not make any gods to be alongside me; do not make for yourselves gods of silver or gods of gold.

24 " 'Make an altar of earth for me and sacrifice on it your burnt offerings and fellowship offerings, [b] your sheep and goats and your cattle. Wherever I cause my name to be honored, I will come to you and bless you. 25 If you make an altar of stones for me, do not build it with dressed stones, for you will defile it if you use a tool on it. 26 And do not go up to my altar on steps, lest your nakedness be exposed on it.'



As you read in verse 20 God tells us exactly why we are here, and why He gave us this law... Let me repeat it.

20 Moses said to the people, "Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning."

He also tells us here, "Do not be afraid."
Really what do we have to fear??
Death? seriously.. what better thing could we experience? Fullness and Oneness with Christ? Bring it on!

Well yes I would like to be married and raise children first, but really who would not want to spend the rest of their lives with their Savior.. "I tell you what Wow!" ~ Anastasia... I love that movie..

I was talking with a woman from the Royal Oak Vineyard last night, she was telling me about her 3 year old daughter and how child services could come take her away for the comment her daughter made.
When her mother asked her daughter what she wanted to do that day, she replied, "I want to go see Jesus" Her mother explained that we won't get to see him until we die, her daughter went on to say, "Well then I want to die and then my Brother can and then you and Daddy, then we can all see Him"

Seriously a 3 year has the right I idea.
I want that. All she want to do is see Jesus to spend time with Him..

Why do we as Adults typically run from him, yet this 3 year old runs to Him?

What is our problem do we not have more knowledge of Jesus's Goodness than a 3 year old possibly could?


Lord correct even my thinking, yea I said it I'm guilty... I SIN!!! I know, I need a Savior I need help!!!

Even Now God has placed within me a desire to be completly transparent.. To accomplish this within me He has also placed on my heart the people in which I need to talk with to confess of sin that Satan was unfortunately successful in pulling over me.

Don't be unrealistic, Satan will try to trip us up any way He can, but don't forget the promise that God has given us. What Satan intends for evil God will make for good.

"All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose" Romans 8:28

So truly is there something I can learn from the sin in which Satan pulled over me?
Yes!! I have to have accountability in all things and I have to listen to God when He warns me of pending temptation......

Yea In the previous situation I ignored the warning signs... Not good..
I need to ask for prayer in advance and listen to God...

Aka... God know I desire a husband.. "Delight thyself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart" Psalms 37:4
My desire will be granted, for I love my Lord and He himself delights in me.

But!!!! I have to wait for God and follow his path not my own..

I caught a bit of a teaching from Joyce Meyers this morning, She said something profound that I actually wrote down..

"Follow the Flesh you end up in bondage, if you follow the Spirit you walk into Freedom"

Yes it is true..

So currently I feel that I cannot get on my facebook for fear of falling into sin and exposing my heart to fleshly desire by letting my eyes fall upon false hopes...

I need help to know when I can check my facebook and when I cannot.
I need the Lord's guidance. He is teaching me to listen and obey.

Currently His answer is No and I know it. Will it always be no? Not in this case, but for now His answer is No.

Thank you Lord for discernment. May your voice continue to get louder and more evident.




Psalm 23

1The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.



I have nothing to fear, my Lord is with me.
Thank you Lord.
Thank you.

I love how you delight in me, may it become more known to me.
~Your Daughter~

Amazing Grace

By the grace of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, today I am alive and well. Amen.
God is so good, His mercies are new every morning, every evening and every moment.
I will never be able to explain the mysteries and wonders that God has shown me.
I look forward to praising my God daily.

Lord thank you for your grace, you amaze me.

Your Daughter,
Michelle