Finding God in Me...

So I just had an interesting revelation..

Listening to music.. Imagine that. God speaks through music.

The last month or two has been interesting in the aspect of my emotions and my heart reaching out to another but yet pulling back and praying about the circumstances and coming to a point where I realize that actually putting my heart out in this circumstance would be devastating to me and the other involved.

Praise God first of all for that revelation.

But that's not the recent revelation.

Yesterday this person said something that just hit me now..
I've questioned whether or not this is the case, but this particular things makes me feel that my suspicion is yet being confirmed.

So yesterday I got a few text messages from this person.

other person says (9:43 AM)
Michelle .. I fee; like I'm falling apart.. My life is going great, but something very important is missing.. 12:50

Me
Seek out the thing thats missing. 12:53

other person says (9:43 AM)
It wasn't missing when I was with you... 1:01

Me
Have you talked to your pastor about it? 1:04

other person says 9:43 AM)
My answer to that question hasnt changed 1:05

Me
I dont know how to reply. 1:16

other person says (9:43 AM)
Youve asked me that question 3 times this week.. I live three cities away from church. Its not the kind of situation where I can just go whenever I want
1:16

Me
I wouldnt know that 1:18

Me
all I know is that would be who I would turn to 1:19

other person says (9:43 AM)
yeah well.. the guy id prefer turn to hasnt been around lately. 1:23



Thats where the convo ended.

I care about this person but I feel that he is trying to find something thats missing through me. It seems that He knows I have something and he felt it when he was with me, and is being tricked to think that the thing he is missing is me.
Its not. It Jesus. Jesus has so infiltrated my life that he was able to feel closer to Jesus when he was with me.

Out of love I cannot let him live his life through me.

The song Found by Hillsong United

Verse 1
Amazing love
Now what else shall I need
Your name brings life
It's more than the air I breathe

Verse 2
My world was changed
When Your love You gave for me
My purpose found
And all that You want for me

Chorus
And I found myself in You
And I found myself in You

Verse 3
Amazing love
Now what else shall I need
Your name brings life
It's more than the air I breathe

Bridge
Take me to a place
Where I can see You face to face
And all I want to do
All I want to do
Is worship You


I feel like he is trying to find God through me.
I pray he will one day understand why I am saying no.

Lord help him truly know that it is You he needs and not me.
I love you Jesus. Come to me in Your ways unknown.
Amen. So Be It. Be It So.
~Michelle