Truth

So I thought I had this on a previous account I had deleted.
Wow I am glad I did not delete it.

I now feel more of a freedom to truly express my thought without concern of pleasing anyone, or attempting to enhance myself in the sight of others reading...


Seriously... how can we truly be humble when we feel we have to please people or inside you feel that you truly want to be closer to Christ and Express your deep thoughts that you share with Jesus when you also want to to be close to the man He has set aside for me.

Yes I will admit it I am attracted to a man currently.. But I want no part of anything unless it is God's will. If He truly seek out God's desire for our union and also my families...

I want no part in falling short to God's design for me and falling into Sin... I've been there before. I don't want it..

So in this instance I am very thankful that this blogging page still exists for in my knowledge no one I currently know has knowledge of this site.

For me that provides a freedom of expressing honest thought and feelings.

In reality is that not what we all need?

Yes I do love speaking with my Lord, but for me I feel deep within me that I need more.. I need to share my thoughts, to be completly honest, and to not stand out as a person anyone wants to place on a throne... That's not what my life is about. I want nothing to do with being placed on a throne. I want my Lord to be the one recognized.

You may ask why I have a hard time noting this on other places, well as I said earlier I don't want people to think of me higher than any other..

Truly, I have sinned in the past, I have been washed clean, but does that mean I do not deserve death?
Seriously, I have broken mans law, Speeding is breaking the law... Yea sucks huh? You deserve death...
We all do..

Yea so why does man put a different level on specific types of sin... Like they don't all deserve death?
Murder... Speeding... Still the same... Sin.

Maybe you have not been convicted when it comes to speeding as some have but truly you are not above the law God gave us..

Are you... If you are I would find it interesting to talk with you..

To provide a better key into this let me give you the 10 Commandments here.

Exodus 20
The Ten Commandments
1 And God spoke all these words:

2 "I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery.

3 "You shall have no other gods before [a] me.

4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments.

7 "You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.

8 "Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. 11 For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.

12 "Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

13 "You shall not murder.

14 "You shall not commit adultery.

15 "You shall not steal.

16 "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.

17 "You shall not covet your neighbor's house. You shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his manservant or maidservant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor."

18 When the people saw the thunder and lightning and heard the trumpet and saw the mountain in smoke, they trembled with fear. They stayed at a distance 19 and said to Moses, "Speak to us yourself and we will listen. But do not have God speak to us or we will die."

20 Moses said to the people, "Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning."

21 The people remained at a distance, while Moses approached the thick darkness where God was.
Idols and Altars
22 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Tell the Israelites this: 'You have seen for yourselves that I have spoken to you from heaven: 23 Do not make any gods to be alongside me; do not make for yourselves gods of silver or gods of gold.

24 " 'Make an altar of earth for me and sacrifice on it your burnt offerings and fellowship offerings, [b] your sheep and goats and your cattle. Wherever I cause my name to be honored, I will come to you and bless you. 25 If you make an altar of stones for me, do not build it with dressed stones, for you will defile it if you use a tool on it. 26 And do not go up to my altar on steps, lest your nakedness be exposed on it.'



As you read in verse 20 God tells us exactly why we are here, and why He gave us this law... Let me repeat it.

20 Moses said to the people, "Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning."

He also tells us here, "Do not be afraid."
Really what do we have to fear??
Death? seriously.. what better thing could we experience? Fullness and Oneness with Christ? Bring it on!

Well yes I would like to be married and raise children first, but really who would not want to spend the rest of their lives with their Savior.. "I tell you what Wow!" ~ Anastasia... I love that movie..

I was talking with a woman from the Royal Oak Vineyard last night, she was telling me about her 3 year old daughter and how child services could come take her away for the comment her daughter made.
When her mother asked her daughter what she wanted to do that day, she replied, "I want to go see Jesus" Her mother explained that we won't get to see him until we die, her daughter went on to say, "Well then I want to die and then my Brother can and then you and Daddy, then we can all see Him"

Seriously a 3 year has the right I idea.
I want that. All she want to do is see Jesus to spend time with Him..

Why do we as Adults typically run from him, yet this 3 year old runs to Him?

What is our problem do we not have more knowledge of Jesus's Goodness than a 3 year old possibly could?


Lord correct even my thinking, yea I said it I'm guilty... I SIN!!! I know, I need a Savior I need help!!!

Even Now God has placed within me a desire to be completly transparent.. To accomplish this within me He has also placed on my heart the people in which I need to talk with to confess of sin that Satan was unfortunately successful in pulling over me.

Don't be unrealistic, Satan will try to trip us up any way He can, but don't forget the promise that God has given us. What Satan intends for evil God will make for good.

"All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose" Romans 8:28

So truly is there something I can learn from the sin in which Satan pulled over me?
Yes!! I have to have accountability in all things and I have to listen to God when He warns me of pending temptation......

Yea In the previous situation I ignored the warning signs... Not good..
I need to ask for prayer in advance and listen to God...

Aka... God know I desire a husband.. "Delight thyself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart" Psalms 37:4
My desire will be granted, for I love my Lord and He himself delights in me.

But!!!! I have to wait for God and follow his path not my own..

I caught a bit of a teaching from Joyce Meyers this morning, She said something profound that I actually wrote down..

"Follow the Flesh you end up in bondage, if you follow the Spirit you walk into Freedom"

Yes it is true..

So currently I feel that I cannot get on my facebook for fear of falling into sin and exposing my heart to fleshly desire by letting my eyes fall upon false hopes...

I need help to know when I can check my facebook and when I cannot.
I need the Lord's guidance. He is teaching me to listen and obey.

Currently His answer is No and I know it. Will it always be no? Not in this case, but for now His answer is No.

Thank you Lord for discernment. May your voice continue to get louder and more evident.




Psalm 23

1The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.



I have nothing to fear, my Lord is with me.
Thank you Lord.
Thank you.

I love how you delight in me, may it become more known to me.
~Your Daughter~